Whats wrong with me??
Well i made it back from SLO, it was a good trip i enjoyed all parts of it, yet at the same time it felt difficult to be there, It's hard for me to see everyone living their life the same, when part of mine is at a standstill and will be until my husband comes home. Please dont get me wrong i dont expect people to live their live differently nor do i want you to, i just hope i can show you where i am at. I have become a quiet reserved person(even more so then before) not really willing to let even those close around me (my family) know what im thinking. I cry often, not because i fear for my husbands safety, but because i miss my best friend.
I struggle with feelings that i dont have a home anymore, where do i belong? SLO is beginning to feel like a place i just visit.
My dreams have become simple, i just want to be with my husband.
Please dont think that i love you, my friends, any less, because i dont but i am struggleing with the feelings that go with not seeing your husband for 3 months and still having 9 or so more months to get through. I knew this was going to be hard and i cant imagine what i would do without the strength that God gives me, Even through this i know that i am so very blessed.
posted by Debra K at 9:41 PM
6 Comments:
I love you, Bud. Thanks for being my best friend and such a good mom for my boy. You are the best.
July 01, 2006 12:20 AM
NOTHING is wrong with you. I was thinking about you guys last night and tried to picture myself in your shoes, and I cannot believe the HUGE sacrifice you guys have made. I can't even wrap my mind around it.
Just know that this will soon be in the past, and the next 50 years you guys DO get to spend together will be insanely blessed because of this year of sacrifice.
Find one or two people you feel comfortable with and TALK YOUR FACE OFF to them EVERYTIME you feel sad, Debra. You need some good friends to help you through this year.
And it's OK to not know where your home is right now... Your home is with Casey now, and when he gets back it won't matter where you guys end up...
hang in there sweetheart.
July 01, 2006 7:53 AM
Debra,
My dear friend...I love you and I miss you. I think the highlight of my life at times is when you visit and bring little 'big man' with you. Cast your cares on the Lord...you are not forgotten. I look forward to our times together and when we get to talk on the phone. Keep in touch my dear,dear,debra.. talk to you soon.
July 01, 2006 10:43 AM
Debra, Im so glad that you wrote that. It is so nice to hear how you are really feeling. You are amazing Debra and we all knew it would be hard. Your familys sacrifice for our country is more than I can phathom, Iv said it before. This well be done soon! And think of it Casey well be here soooooooo soon to visit! You are an amazing friend/mother/wife/woman! Hang in there girl you are incredible! We love you!!
July 01, 2006 11:01 AM
Wow, I could have written this myself except I seem to struggle even a bit more with all of this. You don't know what a blessing this was to read. Just nice to know I'm not alone and others understand the tears.
God bless you much. Keeping you and the family in my prayers.
July 01, 2006 11:47 AM
i guess to answer your question "Whats wrong with me??" I would say nothing, this shows that ou are a completely normal woman who is in love and missing her bestfriend! Take it from me this is all going to be something that you did one time!!
July 04, 2006 2:45 PM
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